this crazy thing [life]

Well, class is over. And while I try to decide which direction to take, i have a lot of things to be thankful for.

I have my health. My heart is back to normal, and i weigh more than I have in over a year!!!

 My education, I passed my class, and now I need to take my national certification.

 My family. This includes my new family.. Terri, James, Magen, Brennon, Braxton, and the future baby Bybee! I was blessed beyond measure when God brought them into my life. My wonderful parents and siblings have been nothing but awesome, even through hardships.

My love. Tanner, has been the best thing to happen in my life, since Reece was born 2 years ago. He is my rock. And on many occasions, I feel like he is my motivation and my sanity. I see my future when I look into his eyes, and that is more comforting than he will ever know.

My God. He has shown me so much in the past 2 months, i can only look forward to the things he will teach me in the future.

So, all I can say is that this crazy thing called life is working in my favor. And I am blessed more than I could have ever hoped for!

Happiness

I am happy. That actually doesn't begin to explain what i feel. I am ecstatic, and oh so so in love!! I have had the best month of my life, and i can't wait for more to come!!! I have the most AWESOME boyfriend ever!! Tanner already knows me so well, and even the thought of getting to see him today makes me giddy! I know all you naysayers out there are thinking its way to soon, but when you find your best friend, and your future.. you just know!

 
 Want to know a few of the things I love about Tanner... suure you do!!!

1. He has a passion for Christ that exceeds my own.. he will help me in my walk to God, and guide me in many ways.


2. He does little things for me. Alllll the time. Like fixing my ring because it is twisted. Or opening doors for me, and always being super sweet!!

3. He calls me the greatest things. babydoll (favorite) honey. babe. and soo many more!!

4. He is okay with me being my normal, goofy, slightly crazy self!


5. He is happy to just hang at home.. he doesn't feel the need to go to the bar every night. he is just like me.

6. Tanner came to see me (twice) when i was sick!! He just came, and laid in bed with me.. and talked to me. It made me feel much much better!!

I'm stopping at 6, because I don't want to go on and on and on and on and on!

 

School is not going so hot.. but I'm not that worried about it. I will either pass this class, or I wont. I have put all of my faith in Christ, and I know that if I don't pass this class I was meant for something else. And I will continue on my path to becoming a nurse.


Work. UGH. just ugh. I am sooo ready for something better. But part of being a responsible adult is staying at a job for the health care and other benefits!

Needless to say.. despite my heart, and other health problems.. I am Blessed beyond measure!!!!!!!!

Put on then, as God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassion, kindness, lowliness, meekness, and patience, forbearing one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. Colossians 3: 12-14

Giddy

WOW!!!! God is amazing!!! I have never been soo in love with my Father as i am right now!! He has shown me how life should be, and I can't imagine it any other way anymore. He brought Tanner and his family into my life. They are amazing, God loving people who show their faith in everything they do. I am soo thankful to have met them, and I hope to be around them for a very long time. 

Its funny how people go day by day without ever noticing the work God has done in their lives. I used to be one of those people, but after the work he has done in my life in the past 3 weeks, I will never walk around blind again. 

When God has a plan for you, it will all fall into place. Somethings may not make sense right then, but sit back and watch, because God is doing big things for you!!!  And your life will change for the better!

Things Change

So much has changed for me in the past month. I've talked to a few guys.. eeeh.

I started school to become an EMT.. today was day 2, and it is already kicking my butt!! 6 chapters into it.. and a test every week. But I am sooooooooooo excited to start rotations, and to ride in a truck. And to graduate!!

Im moving to Austin after i graduate. I am ready to try new things, and see new places. I also want to be closer to my sisters, neices, nephew, and brother- in- law. I will miss my parents and brother soo much (but now they will have a bigger excuse to come visit) I LOVE my family more than life its self, and i would like to be closer to my sisters. Since they are both older than me, we have never been as close as I would like, but now it is time to change that!!

I GOT BAPTIZED!!!!! I have never felt God's love more than I felt that night. A huge weight was lifted off my chest, and I have breathed a lot easier since then.

My family is awesome.. my aunts, uncles, cousins, brother, and friends all came to watch me publicly commit my life to Christ.. there is nothing better than the support of family and friends.

I also went to the River the first time. I had soo much fun, and really hope to go back!!!

Life is changing so fast, and I feel like God is leading me to great things!!

12 Stones

While listening to my ipod recently, i discovered the 12 Stones album (thanks Cali) and I really enjoy it.. here are the lyrics that i currently have stuck in my head:

"Don't act like an angel, you've fallen again. Your no super hero, I found in the end. So lie to me once again, and tell me everything will be alright, lie to me once again, and ask yourself before we say goodbye. Well goodbye, was it worth it in the end?"

 

That is from the song Lie to Me.. its is my favorite song right now!!! 

I have had a pretty eventful, but uneventful week. I moved yesterday, and I also got baptized. I also got to reconnect with some friends I haven't seen in a really long time.. this has actually been a pretty good week.. so all in all I can't complain. 

I will be in Austin this thursday.. I am soooo flipping excited!!!!!

Amazing Love

I am always amazed at the love I have in my life. I have the most wonderful parents a girl could ask for. They support me 100 %. No matter what I decide to do, and even if it is not something they like, they still support me.  I also have the best sisters, and brother EVER!! Mandy, Amber, and Jamie are always there for me with advise, and a shoulder to cry on. They continually support me, and are my best friends. My friends are amazing. They accept me, even when I'm moody, cranky, and a little bit crazy. They don't pass judgment on the things I do, or want to do.. and are always there to talk. The residents at work may drive me crazy, but they all care about me. And i know they want the best for me. I have a wonderful, and very very large extended family, that are all amazing in their own way. They are all a little crazy at times (love yall!!) but they are very valuable to me. I love getting to see any of my relatives, and wish I could see them all more!!


However, Gods unending love is the basis of my existence. Because He loved me before i was born, I am alive today. Because He died for me, I have eternal life. Because He is a patient, and loving God, I know my past and future sins are forgiven. No matter how hard my day is, or what i am struggling with, I know He is there for me, and He has already taken my burdens away. I am grateful for Him.


Happy Mothers Day Deanne. You are the best mom ever. You are awsome, loving, funny, and kind. You take care of everyone, and never complain about it. I love you mommy!! Thank you for being you!

Music

Music is a vital part of my life. When i need a good pick me up i always turn to the Christian stations in my car. When i want to relax I like to listen to some nice, chill coffee shop music. These are some (no where near all of) my favorite songs right now:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=NTAjLwWNITg&feature=related
She & Him- You Really Got A Hold On Me

http://youtube.com/watch?v=_YtzsUdSC_I
colbie caillat i never told you

http://youtube.com/watch?v=xY0HCKOmrW0
Shinedown- If you only knew

http://youtube.com/watch?v=u3wVY4u6KO0
Paramore- Let this go

http://youtube.com/watch?v=UumRkksN-LE
Miranda Lambert- more like her

http://youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA
Ill Pray For You

http://youtube.com/watch?v=9yZ1uI5yPbY
The Script- Breakeven

I hope everyone has a great Thursday