We are engaged!!!!

Tanner proposed on Christmas morning, and I said yes (of course) I would say yes a thousand times more!!

He is the best man I've ever met, he is a great spiritual leader, and he loves me for who I am!! I'm the most blessed woman alive!!

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It's the little things

I got a Christmas card in the mail today. It was beautiful, but it made me tear up just a tiny bit. I don't get to talk to Bailey much anymore.. we are both so busy, and yet she still sent me a adorable card with a picture of her family. So sweet.

I have had some of the best times of my life since June. I watched my best friend marry the love of her life. I watched my future sister-in-law get big (but beautifully) pregnant and have a precious little girl. I got to watch my nephew meet his little sister for the first time. And every day I fall back in love with Tanner.

Tanner and I are a match made in heaven.. really. There is no other way to describe our relationship than by saying that God intended us to be together. We are our Heavenly Father's perfect match for each other. And the thrills me more than I know how to express. God loved everyone on earth so much that He took the time to make a perfect soul mate for them. Someone that will help them in their walk with Christ, and someone that can hold them up when they are weak. And Tanner is my someone.

There are so many little things that have gone unnoticed in my life, but they have made all the difference:

~ When we walk in a parking lot tanner always places me on the side that is away from moving cars. His first priority is to protect me.

~ My dad leaves the coffee pot on an hour later than he used to, so that I can get a hot cup when I wake up.. long after he has gone to work.

~ My parents are always willing to loan me one of their cars, since I messed mine up. Again.

~ Even though Tanner hates, hates, HATES feet, he will rub mine between his hands if I'm cold.

~ Tanner, or my dad will go outside in the cold to warm my car up for me.. and the heater is always going full blast. :)

~ Christine calls all the time just to say hi, and that she loves me. Always makes my day.

~ I have a petty little fear of being home alone at night.. so Tanner's family said I am welcome to stay with them anytime I need to.

~ A friend of my mom's is putting in a good word for me, so that maybe I can get a job!!

I am blessed beyond reason, and so grateful for everything, especially the little things, that have happened in my life in the past 6 months.


Remember.. Jesus is the reason for the season. So give thanks for his birth, and his death, so that we may live forever!

 Merry Christmas!!!

I love the Lord, because He has heard my voice and my supplications.

Because He has inclined His ear to me, Therefore I will call upon him as long as I live. 

Psalms 116:1-2

Thankful for so much!!

I'm sitting here thinking about why I should be thankful... And there are so many things that I have in my life to be thankful for!!

I have my wonderful boyfriend, family, and a close group of friends.

I am blessed with good health, even though I've had my ups and downs before. I have been in better health for the last 5 months than I had been in years!

I may be jobless, but I'm not having financial problems.. God is so great, and he has been providing for me!!

Most of all.. I am thankful for my wonderful Father in Heaven, for saving my soul. :)

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NOVEMBER!!!

I LOVE fall!! I love the changing of the leaves, and the crisp cool nights by the fire. I love the smell of cold air in the mornings, and the comfortably warm afternoons. I especially love lazy Saturday's with a cup of coffee and a blanket on the back porch! I can't forget scarves, long sleeves, sweaters, and hoodies.. oh hoodies!!

November holds a special place in my heart.. it is the beginning of family time to me.

November.. my parents were married (today is their 30th Anniversary!!) i love y'all!! my boyfriend was born (he turns 25 later this month!) i get to see most of my family (THANKSGIVING!!) My sister, and her daughters are coming to town this weekend (so excited!!) My best friend, her husband and son are coming to town (can't wait to see Bailey, Cody and Channing!!) Christmas lights start to go up!!!!

Fall is my favorite part of year.. I like spring, a lot, but fall is just a little bit more special to me!

Keep the fire burning in my heart!!

Church was wonderful today!! Pastor Brenda is great at keeping us focused, and every sermon speaks to me! After church Tanner cooked boudin for lunch.. Yummy!!!!

Then Tanner and I went golfing!! I really enjoy getting to go and watch him play!! I really like getting to spend that time with him, especially when we get to do something we both enjoy!!

After golf I went back to church.. All I can say is WOW!!!! Brennon was blessed, and got the hearing back in his left ear!! It was an amazing time and testimony from John Wakabi!!!!

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soo funny

this made me laugh so hard that I nearly threw up.. A must see!!!!!

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Jobless Thursday

Well, I quit my job on Tuesday. I am oddly at peace about the fact that I have no form of income coming in. I have total faith that God will show me where I need to be. The last few days have been nicer than I would have ever imagined.. Especially the weather!!! Its just beautiful and peaceful outside. I love fall, and I'm so excited it is finally here!!!!

Tanner has been a wonderful, solid, and supportive rock through everything. I know, that if it wasn't for his support I would have already crumpled into a blubbering mess! I am overly blessed to have him in my life!!! Thank you Tanner, for loving me.. Especially when I need it the most!!!

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Facebook Fast

Today I started the 7 day Facebook Fast that klove asked its listeners to participate in.. So far, it has been really easy, and nice to just disconnect.

I have some tough decisions ahead of me.. Mainly having to do with if I should stay at the ranch, or find other employment. So, say a quick prayer for me to find some clarity, if you don't mind! thanks!!

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contemplations

ugh, I have a stomach bug.. and it really sucks!! however, it has given me ample time to look into my life, and evaluate a few things..

for example: I am not happy with my job. the dread I feel when it is time for work is not normal.. in the least! it has come to the point that my stomach bug was almost a welcome reprieve from the ranch. we are under staffed, over worked, and too drama filled to go into detail. but, this sums it up pretty well: I asked for a transfer to the other kitchen on campus, and my boss practically threw a hissy fit.. and my transfer has yet to be approved by him.. even after I offered to take a $1.30 an hour pay cut!! [please be praying for this to come to a speedy resolution]

besides work.. I have the best life a girl could ask for. no, I take that back.. its better than the best!! I have the most wonderful, and loving boyfriend [future husband] ever!!!! My family and friends are the greatest!! And last, but certainly no where near least, I have a wonderful God who sacrificed His son, so that I may have the chance to live eternally with Him in heaven!!!

So, I am blessed, more blessed than I feel I deserve, but I am taking the gifts God has given me. And letting the rest of it roll off my back! I give it all to You, Lord, for I know You have the strength when I am weak!!

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this crazy thing [life]

Well, class is over. And while I try to decide which direction to take, i have a lot of things to be thankful for.

I have my health. My heart is back to normal, and i weigh more than I have in over a year!!!

 My education, I passed my class, and now I need to take my national certification.

 My family. This includes my new family.. Terri, James, Magen, Brennon, Braxton, and the future baby Bybee! I was blessed beyond measure when God brought them into my life. My wonderful parents and siblings have been nothing but awesome, even through hardships.

My love. Tanner, has been the best thing to happen in my life, since Reece was born 2 years ago. He is my rock. And on many occasions, I feel like he is my motivation and my sanity. I see my future when I look into his eyes, and that is more comforting than he will ever know.

My God. He has shown me so much in the past 2 months, i can only look forward to the things he will teach me in the future.

So, all I can say is that this crazy thing called life is working in my favor. And I am blessed more than I could have ever hoped for!

Happiness

I am happy. That actually doesn't begin to explain what i feel. I am ecstatic, and oh so so in love!! I have had the best month of my life, and i can't wait for more to come!!! I have the most AWESOME boyfriend ever!! Tanner already knows me so well, and even the thought of getting to see him today makes me giddy! I know all you naysayers out there are thinking its way to soon, but when you find your best friend, and your future.. you just know!

 
 Want to know a few of the things I love about Tanner... suure you do!!!

1. He has a passion for Christ that exceeds my own.. he will help me in my walk to God, and guide me in many ways.


2. He does little things for me. Alllll the time. Like fixing my ring because it is twisted. Or opening doors for me, and always being super sweet!!

3. He calls me the greatest things. babydoll (favorite) honey. babe. and soo many more!!

4. He is okay with me being my normal, goofy, slightly crazy self!


5. He is happy to just hang at home.. he doesn't feel the need to go to the bar every night. he is just like me.

6. Tanner came to see me (twice) when i was sick!! He just came, and laid in bed with me.. and talked to me. It made me feel much much better!!

I'm stopping at 6, because I don't want to go on and on and on and on and on!

 

School is not going so hot.. but I'm not that worried about it. I will either pass this class, or I wont. I have put all of my faith in Christ, and I know that if I don't pass this class I was meant for something else. And I will continue on my path to becoming a nurse.


Work. UGH. just ugh. I am sooo ready for something better. But part of being a responsible adult is staying at a job for the health care and other benefits!

Needless to say.. despite my heart, and other health problems.. I am Blessed beyond measure!!!!!!!!

Put on then, as God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassion, kindness, lowliness, meekness, and patience, forbearing one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. Colossians 3: 12-14

Giddy

WOW!!!! God is amazing!!! I have never been soo in love with my Father as i am right now!! He has shown me how life should be, and I can't imagine it any other way anymore. He brought Tanner and his family into my life. They are amazing, God loving people who show their faith in everything they do. I am soo thankful to have met them, and I hope to be around them for a very long time. 

Its funny how people go day by day without ever noticing the work God has done in their lives. I used to be one of those people, but after the work he has done in my life in the past 3 weeks, I will never walk around blind again. 

When God has a plan for you, it will all fall into place. Somethings may not make sense right then, but sit back and watch, because God is doing big things for you!!!  And your life will change for the better!

Things Change

So much has changed for me in the past month. I've talked to a few guys.. eeeh.

I started school to become an EMT.. today was day 2, and it is already kicking my butt!! 6 chapters into it.. and a test every week. But I am sooooooooooo excited to start rotations, and to ride in a truck. And to graduate!!

Im moving to Austin after i graduate. I am ready to try new things, and see new places. I also want to be closer to my sisters, neices, nephew, and brother- in- law. I will miss my parents and brother soo much (but now they will have a bigger excuse to come visit) I LOVE my family more than life its self, and i would like to be closer to my sisters. Since they are both older than me, we have never been as close as I would like, but now it is time to change that!!

I GOT BAPTIZED!!!!! I have never felt God's love more than I felt that night. A huge weight was lifted off my chest, and I have breathed a lot easier since then.

My family is awesome.. my aunts, uncles, cousins, brother, and friends all came to watch me publicly commit my life to Christ.. there is nothing better than the support of family and friends.

I also went to the River the first time. I had soo much fun, and really hope to go back!!!

Life is changing so fast, and I feel like God is leading me to great things!!

12 Stones

While listening to my ipod recently, i discovered the 12 Stones album (thanks Cali) and I really enjoy it.. here are the lyrics that i currently have stuck in my head:

"Don't act like an angel, you've fallen again. Your no super hero, I found in the end. So lie to me once again, and tell me everything will be alright, lie to me once again, and ask yourself before we say goodbye. Well goodbye, was it worth it in the end?"

 

That is from the song Lie to Me.. its is my favorite song right now!!! 

I have had a pretty eventful, but uneventful week. I moved yesterday, and I also got baptized. I also got to reconnect with some friends I haven't seen in a really long time.. this has actually been a pretty good week.. so all in all I can't complain. 

I will be in Austin this thursday.. I am soooo flipping excited!!!!!

Amazing Love

I am always amazed at the love I have in my life. I have the most wonderful parents a girl could ask for. They support me 100 %. No matter what I decide to do, and even if it is not something they like, they still support me.  I also have the best sisters, and brother EVER!! Mandy, Amber, and Jamie are always there for me with advise, and a shoulder to cry on. They continually support me, and are my best friends. My friends are amazing. They accept me, even when I'm moody, cranky, and a little bit crazy. They don't pass judgment on the things I do, or want to do.. and are always there to talk. The residents at work may drive me crazy, but they all care about me. And i know they want the best for me. I have a wonderful, and very very large extended family, that are all amazing in their own way. They are all a little crazy at times (love yall!!) but they are very valuable to me. I love getting to see any of my relatives, and wish I could see them all more!!


However, Gods unending love is the basis of my existence. Because He loved me before i was born, I am alive today. Because He died for me, I have eternal life. Because He is a patient, and loving God, I know my past and future sins are forgiven. No matter how hard my day is, or what i am struggling with, I know He is there for me, and He has already taken my burdens away. I am grateful for Him.


Happy Mothers Day Deanne. You are the best mom ever. You are awsome, loving, funny, and kind. You take care of everyone, and never complain about it. I love you mommy!! Thank you for being you!

Music

Music is a vital part of my life. When i need a good pick me up i always turn to the Christian stations in my car. When i want to relax I like to listen to some nice, chill coffee shop music. These are some (no where near all of) my favorite songs right now:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=NTAjLwWNITg&feature=related
She & Him- You Really Got A Hold On Me

http://youtube.com/watch?v=_YtzsUdSC_I
colbie caillat i never told you

http://youtube.com/watch?v=xY0HCKOmrW0
Shinedown- If you only knew

http://youtube.com/watch?v=u3wVY4u6KO0
Paramore- Let this go

http://youtube.com/watch?v=UumRkksN-LE
Miranda Lambert- more like her

http://youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA
Ill Pray For You

http://youtube.com/watch?v=9yZ1uI5yPbY
The Script- Breakeven

I hope everyone has a great Thursday

rejection

rejection is a funny thing. and it comes in a lot of different forms. the rejection of someone you love, the rejection of a friend, the rejection from a school or job. no body likes rejection.. no one! and everyone of us is going to face it at some point. but rest assured, there is something better out there for you. you may not see it now, or in the near future. but it is out there. so take rejection in stride.. and know that God loves you, and he will never reject you. and with His love all things are possible. 


i'm not saying this because i have been rejected recently, but because someone thought i was rejecting them (which would mean he still thought i was more than a friend to him.. nope, not going to happen kiddo).. and it got me thinking. rejection is a part of life, a really really sucky part, but a part none the less. So cry your tears, become stronger, and know that things will get better!!


12 days from now i am going to be baptized... sooo excited!!! dad starts his new job 7 days from now!!! aaand in 17 days i will be in austin with my sisters!!!!!!!!!


(notice how the only important things are capitalized.. nothing else matters in life)

School

I enrolled in classes today.. soo flipping excited!! I cant wait for summer school to start.. But now I have all that added stress to deal with. 




I love you Uncle Randy!!!!!

The "normal" week

This week has been a little hectic for me. I have worked a butt load, and am only off tomorrow. I took Georgia to the vet to get fixed this morning.. and i am really kinda sad. i miss her already. AND she has to stay over night!! But it will be so worth it in the long run. 


I got some adorable flip-flops yesterday.. and bought my 2 best girls some cards.. so be watching the mail Bailey and Christine! i also hung out with Nick yesterday afternoon.. which is always a fun and educational experience. 


I'm not going to talk about the date I had on Sunday.. so lets just say it was a good first step into the world of dating.. but its the only step i'll be taking for a while.


Thanks to my awesome friend Christine and the advise she didn't know she was giving.. I have decided to stop worrying about all the things going on in my life, and just take things as they come.  


I still have some things i need to get done before I can go back to school, and i really hope to get those things done today.. so peace out!!

Day off

Today is my day off. I had tons of stuff planned to do.. but sitting at home is soo much easier. Yesterday My car decided to die on me, and I sat at work for nearly an hour while my dad tried to fix it. We finally got it fixed this morning.. and my brothers friend, Brandon, is my hero!!!!

It is beautiful day outside... so I am going to go hang out with Christine!!!

Wednesday

Wednesdays have not been so friendly to me in recent weeks. But i decided to change the way Wednesdays work for me. So today, I got up, and did my usual routine, then I went and got a tattoo!So, I am in a little bit of pain.. but I am really happy with the end result. And I love what it means: My Heart is on fire for you, Lord!!

Now, its off to bed.. but I have got to say, today goes down as the first good Wednesday in a long time!

Life

Life. It is a crazy and twisted ride. It has lots of ups and downs. No one knows when the ride is going to end. But, recently, i have learned a lot about what i want in life. I want a career that makes me happy, not just a job that I go to everyday. I want to be closer to God. I want a guy to pick me, to want to be with me more than he wants to leave.

I have a lot of things going for me in this life. I have a family that loves me, a God that gave his son for my sins, friends that are willing to do whatever it takes to see me smile, and a picture of Channing Tatum on my phone ;)

I am blessed. I should be happy with where I am in life. But I am always wanting more. I am now taking the steps necessary to get the things I want in life. So this blog is about me trying new things, and going for the things I want.

I hope everyone has a great day!