Jobless Thursday

Well, I quit my job on Tuesday. I am oddly at peace about the fact that I have no form of income coming in. I have total faith that God will show me where I need to be. The last few days have been nicer than I would have ever imagined.. Especially the weather!!! Its just beautiful and peaceful outside. I love fall, and I'm so excited it is finally here!!!!

Tanner has been a wonderful, solid, and supportive rock through everything. I know, that if it wasn't for his support I would have already crumpled into a blubbering mess! I am overly blessed to have him in my life!!! Thank you Tanner, for loving me.. Especially when I need it the most!!!

Published with Blogger-droid v1.5.9

Facebook Fast

Today I started the 7 day Facebook Fast that klove asked its listeners to participate in.. So far, it has been really easy, and nice to just disconnect.

I have some tough decisions ahead of me.. Mainly having to do with if I should stay at the ranch, or find other employment. So, say a quick prayer for me to find some clarity, if you don't mind! thanks!!

Published with Blogger-droid v1.5.9

contemplations

ugh, I have a stomach bug.. and it really sucks!! however, it has given me ample time to look into my life, and evaluate a few things..

for example: I am not happy with my job. the dread I feel when it is time for work is not normal.. in the least! it has come to the point that my stomach bug was almost a welcome reprieve from the ranch. we are under staffed, over worked, and too drama filled to go into detail. but, this sums it up pretty well: I asked for a transfer to the other kitchen on campus, and my boss practically threw a hissy fit.. and my transfer has yet to be approved by him.. even after I offered to take a $1.30 an hour pay cut!! [please be praying for this to come to a speedy resolution]

besides work.. I have the best life a girl could ask for. no, I take that back.. its better than the best!! I have the most wonderful, and loving boyfriend [future husband] ever!!!! My family and friends are the greatest!! And last, but certainly no where near least, I have a wonderful God who sacrificed His son, so that I may have the chance to live eternally with Him in heaven!!!

So, I am blessed, more blessed than I feel I deserve, but I am taking the gifts God has given me. And letting the rest of it roll off my back! I give it all to You, Lord, for I know You have the strength when I am weak!!

Published with Blogger-droid v1.5.9

this crazy thing [life]

Well, class is over. And while I try to decide which direction to take, i have a lot of things to be thankful for.

I have my health. My heart is back to normal, and i weigh more than I have in over a year!!!

 My education, I passed my class, and now I need to take my national certification.

 My family. This includes my new family.. Terri, James, Magen, Brennon, Braxton, and the future baby Bybee! I was blessed beyond measure when God brought them into my life. My wonderful parents and siblings have been nothing but awesome, even through hardships.

My love. Tanner, has been the best thing to happen in my life, since Reece was born 2 years ago. He is my rock. And on many occasions, I feel like he is my motivation and my sanity. I see my future when I look into his eyes, and that is more comforting than he will ever know.

My God. He has shown me so much in the past 2 months, i can only look forward to the things he will teach me in the future.

So, all I can say is that this crazy thing called life is working in my favor. And I am blessed more than I could have ever hoped for!

Happiness

I am happy. That actually doesn't begin to explain what i feel. I am ecstatic, and oh so so in love!! I have had the best month of my life, and i can't wait for more to come!!! I have the most AWESOME boyfriend ever!! Tanner already knows me so well, and even the thought of getting to see him today makes me giddy! I know all you naysayers out there are thinking its way to soon, but when you find your best friend, and your future.. you just know!

 
 Want to know a few of the things I love about Tanner... suure you do!!!

1. He has a passion for Christ that exceeds my own.. he will help me in my walk to God, and guide me in many ways.


2. He does little things for me. Alllll the time. Like fixing my ring because it is twisted. Or opening doors for me, and always being super sweet!!

3. He calls me the greatest things. babydoll (favorite) honey. babe. and soo many more!!

4. He is okay with me being my normal, goofy, slightly crazy self!


5. He is happy to just hang at home.. he doesn't feel the need to go to the bar every night. he is just like me.

6. Tanner came to see me (twice) when i was sick!! He just came, and laid in bed with me.. and talked to me. It made me feel much much better!!

I'm stopping at 6, because I don't want to go on and on and on and on and on!

 

School is not going so hot.. but I'm not that worried about it. I will either pass this class, or I wont. I have put all of my faith in Christ, and I know that if I don't pass this class I was meant for something else. And I will continue on my path to becoming a nurse.


Work. UGH. just ugh. I am sooo ready for something better. But part of being a responsible adult is staying at a job for the health care and other benefits!

Needless to say.. despite my heart, and other health problems.. I am Blessed beyond measure!!!!!!!!

Put on then, as God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassion, kindness, lowliness, meekness, and patience, forbearing one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. Colossians 3: 12-14

Giddy

WOW!!!! God is amazing!!! I have never been soo in love with my Father as i am right now!! He has shown me how life should be, and I can't imagine it any other way anymore. He brought Tanner and his family into my life. They are amazing, God loving people who show their faith in everything they do. I am soo thankful to have met them, and I hope to be around them for a very long time. 

Its funny how people go day by day without ever noticing the work God has done in their lives. I used to be one of those people, but after the work he has done in my life in the past 3 weeks, I will never walk around blind again. 

When God has a plan for you, it will all fall into place. Somethings may not make sense right then, but sit back and watch, because God is doing big things for you!!!  And your life will change for the better!

Things Change

So much has changed for me in the past month. I've talked to a few guys.. eeeh.

I started school to become an EMT.. today was day 2, and it is already kicking my butt!! 6 chapters into it.. and a test every week. But I am sooooooooooo excited to start rotations, and to ride in a truck. And to graduate!!

Im moving to Austin after i graduate. I am ready to try new things, and see new places. I also want to be closer to my sisters, neices, nephew, and brother- in- law. I will miss my parents and brother soo much (but now they will have a bigger excuse to come visit) I LOVE my family more than life its self, and i would like to be closer to my sisters. Since they are both older than me, we have never been as close as I would like, but now it is time to change that!!

I GOT BAPTIZED!!!!! I have never felt God's love more than I felt that night. A huge weight was lifted off my chest, and I have breathed a lot easier since then.

My family is awesome.. my aunts, uncles, cousins, brother, and friends all came to watch me publicly commit my life to Christ.. there is nothing better than the support of family and friends.

I also went to the River the first time. I had soo much fun, and really hope to go back!!!

Life is changing so fast, and I feel like God is leading me to great things!!